“Wait, isn't your life one big vacation?”
I realize that we, as travel bloggers, do our bit to perpetuate this myth by posting fun updates and photos on an almost constant basis. While all these experiences are true, there are also unglamorous bits, challenging stuff that goes on behind the scenes.
So here's a bit of the honest truth: I'm tired. Actually, I'm exhausted.
Layers of Fatigue
Although traveling through Bangladesh was fascinating and fulfilling, it required incredible amounts of energy. This was on top of a whirlwind trip through Jordan. My body and mind are now telling me they need a break.
My head feels fuzzy, little things tire me out and I find my patience wearing thin sooner than it once did (Dan will probably agree with this). I feel as though I've lost sight of the big picture and find myself distracted by little things that don't matter. I feel like my creativity is sapped.
In the constant movement in the pursuit of “making the most of it” as a traveler, blogger, and digital nomad, I haven't been listening to my body. I've fallen into an unhealthy cycle that feels eerily similar to the ones I experienced when I had a traditional desk job.
This time, I have no one to blame but myself.
Bali on the Brain
So as our journey through Bangladesh continued, I began dreaming of a 10-day silent meditation retreat. The idea of silence, sleep and a low-stimulus environment where I could be still and think sounded heavenly. But the schedules for these retreats didn't work out.
Then Bali got into my brain. As did yoga.
Yes, it's cliche. Yes, it's very Eat-Pray-Love-ish. But I don't care.
As I began researching online, I saw photos of cute bungalows in lush green gardens with “breakfast served on the porch” and thought, “I want that.” I want quiet. I want peace. I want green. I want a place where I can read, where I can write. I want to stretch and exercise my body.
We leave for Bali tomorrow.
We will be a couple of weeks in the town of Ubud before joining a weeklong G Adventures tour of Bali as Wanderers in Residence. What attracted us to this tour (besides the fact that hello, it's beautiful Bali!) is that it seems to have a good balance of structured and free time.
I have no delusions that a few weeks in Bali will resolve all my issues, but I do hope that by resting, some of the fuzziness in my head will dissipate so I can think more clearly. With this, we hope to incorporate more balance again into our lives.
If you're wondering what happened to the Panorama of the Week that usually appears here on Mondays, you can find it at The Sawdust Carpets of Semana Santa. We posted it a few days early for Good Friday.